Saturday, February 28, 2015

The count down begins...

Scott will be leaving in 9 days...he is more excited this year than he was last! I've been so concerned this year about him going alone...he just smiles and tells me he hates that I am worried but he is excited and 100% positive it is important that he go...I am still concerned but I am walking in more peace that I was a month ago!

He has been spending the last month attempting to prepare and make final plans with the personal on the ground there...He, JD and our personal where Skyping the other day and I was able to listen to some of the call...I kept thinking of the 20 plus years ago when our family headed overseas and how much "easier" it is now with the technology that we have and the ability to communicate with each other now...I was thinking how...20 years ago...we wouldn't be able to make the plans like he has now...he would just go and see what would happen...now a plan can be formed of some kind! However, we've learned over the years, that anytime we are doing the work of ministry we need to be "fluid, Much like a river you never know when it may turn be bumpy but you just flow...and anyone who knows Scott Griffith knows he can do that for sure!!! Probably easier than any of us...it's funny...he HATES change more than any of our family...but then it comes to opportunities like this he can change in a heartbeat with no trouble...another God thing I would say!!!!

But the part that I was most overwhelmed with was at the end of the visit...before they all hung up...our personal overseas prayed...we all prayed together 1000's of miles apart!

My family who have lived overseas for so many years now was in the states several years ago and they invited us to go to a Chinese church with them...while there we were singing...and some of the hymns I knew...we sang them in English while the church body sang them in their language...I was overwhelmed with the thought of God hearing us all no matter where we are or how we speak...and then the thought of what heaven will be like with all of the different languages and colors...in the presence of His radiance!...I felt the same way when those 3 men prayed together the other morning, spread so many miles apart and yet their unified prayer has heard by our Father...

I remember thinking so many years ago that Scott and I would never have the money to travel...not for ministry work...not for fun...that just wouldn't be something we would get to do...but God had other plans...and while you couldn't put a pencil to it and explain how in the world financially what little traveling we've done happened...God has provided it...100% .  This year Scott goes to India...this summer I will go to the Dominican Republic and our prayer and hope next year we will go to India together...

Life lessons I've learned over the years...when God calls you...He provides...the provision can look like many different things...but never ever forget to give HIM the glory for it...I was taught this many years ago and was reminded of it just this week...if it is God's will...it is God's bill...we are a walking testament to that!

Until the words come again...

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

PRONE...

      O to grace how great a debtor 
daily I'm constrained to be!
Let thy goodness, like a fetter,
bind my wandering heart to thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
prone to leave the God I love;
here's my heart, O take and seal it,
seal it for thy courts above.

We sang this song on Sunday morning...and these particular words hit me so hard...

I don't know about you but this is my life...in a few short words...
I love Him...I serve Him...I am passionate about Him...and then...something happens...a struggle maybe or a trial or a simple distraction...and my heart that is SO prone to wander...begins that journey of going the wrong way...yet again...

One thing the Lord has really been talking to me about is always being so negative...not saying positive things about others...and ALWAYS seeing my glass of circumstances 1/2 empty instead of 1/2 full...now this is a habit in my life and so I'm determined to begin being more positive...looking for the positive...and you might ask how this week has gone...well...I haven't spewed negativity out all week...but I have just been quiet which is not the end result I believe the Lord would want from me...so once again I am a work in progress...

The other issue...is my addiction...I'm still circling the mountain...and every step of that daily circle I can CLEARLY hear the Lord say...haven't you circled this LONG ENOUGH!!! Get up and move north...please pray...while we as humans attempt to put our sins in categories...they are all even and level at the foot of the cross...and this addiction is a sin the Lord has convicted me of...I am learning that no matter what,  He loves me...God's love for me...for us is NOT based on our victories over sin...even when I feel like a complete failure...He loves me... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tF1jrI6dbFg

So what now...well I am at a fork the road of my life...I can go the wrong way...the way of my Savior...or I can sit down and quit...which I REFUSE TO DO...I will not quit...He is with me...so I will go on with Him...and there will be times that I THINK I am taking the right way...and find out a few steps into it that I was wrong...but He loves me anyway and He will lead me the correct way...if I will submit to Him...and there will be times that I will take the correct path...but do you know what,  He still loves me...the same...for God so loved the world that He gave His son...He loved and He gave and thank goodness it is NOT dependent on me!

My name is Lori...and I am a food addict...and I am a messed up woman...but I am loved and redeemed by Jesus Christ...my Savior...I am a work in progress and until I draw my last breath I will be a work in progress...