Monday, June 26, 2023

Let go...

 I love worshipping to music! I love to raise my hand...but as we were worshipping yesterday in church...I was reminded of a mental picture God gave to me...I have a very difficult time of just letting it all go...raising BOTH hands and giving ALL to the Lord...

I found myself wondering what am I hanging onto...I can tell you that in many areas of my life I struggle with just letting go...releasing...open palming it...it's like if I let go...I'll be out of control...which is something the Lord reminded me...yes I need to let it all go...be out of control and let Him be in control...

What if...I could live like this...

 “I have one desire now – to live a life of reckless abandon for the Lord, putting all my energy and strength into it.”  ~Elisabeth Elliot

I was studying this thought today and came across this...I'm always looking inward, examining my heart...trying my best to critique it...but what if...just maybe...the only place I truly need to be looking is up...to HIM seeking HIM and allowing HIM to do the changing...molding...critiquing me...by His Spirit and nothing of myself...

this is another definition of reckless abandonment...

Oswald Chambers defines it as “totally unrestrained and willing to risk everything.

To come after Christ...in Luke 9 the word tells me I must deny myself...and embrace the cross...

16 “Today the Lord your God has commanded you to obey all these decrees and regulations. So be careful to obey them wholeheartedly. 17 You have declared today that the Lord is your God. And you have promised to walk in his ways, and to obey his decrees, commands, and regulations, and to do everything he tells you.

Reckless abandoned...WHOLEHEARTEDLY...God is speaking...so I believe my only response can be that of Samuels in 1 Samuel 3:10...SPEAK LORD YOUR SERVANT IS LISTENING...

I would say I wish I will begin to pry my fingers open and surrender to the Lord...but I find myself praying that I will stop the struggle...relax and just let go...close my eyes...raise BOTH hands and worship Him in every area of my life in reckless abandonment!

One last quote from Oswald Chambers...

You do not know when His voice will come to you, but whenever the realization of God comes, even in the faintest way imaginable, be determined to recklessly abandon yourself, surrendering everything to Him.

Friday, June 23, 2023

My guy

 Happy birthday Scott! I love you so much! I pray your day is as special as you are! Thanks for being a rock like never before this past year in my life. 

I can't seem to find words today but I pray this year is full of amazing adventures...I pray India happens this year...that I make my goal so we can go on a cruise...that you receive so many blessings this year!

I love you...thanks for picking me...

Love ya...Beth

Happy birthday!

 Michael happy birthday today!!! Boy if we had only known the loss the last year would hold for us...but I want to say thanks...for being patient with me through it all...

I was thinking the other day...when I saw your pictures on facebook of your get away trip with Bekah...no one can make you smile like she can...I'm so thankful for the life you and her are building together...I remember the days of littles everywhere...and I promise those days can be forever long but the years will pass like a blink!!! I say all that to say...when they are grown...and it's just you and Bekah...well...that part of life is good too!!!

I pray this year brings you so much joy and happiness...I pray you grow even stronger in the Lord...I pray you find your forever land...I pray you know just how loved you are! I pray you continue to be the hero to your 4 littles...and that you love Beks well...

I'm thankful to call you my son. I so proud of you and all your accomplishments! Have a blessed day today!

Love, 

Mom