blah...

I know why I just don't want to admit it...disobedience will do this to me every single time! Wanting things to go my way because that is easier than going and or doing the things God has asked of me...so I walk in disobedience and have the blahs...

and there is no reason...no good one anyways...just listen to how much our God loves us...

He saved us for one!!! Salvation thru His Son Jesus Christ...He has given us each other...we are pretty healthy...we have the things we need and even some added blessings on top of that! Amazing children and really amazing grandbabies!!!!

The honor to be His servants in a church we love like family...we are family there! A year with a Pastor and sweet family that loves us...Loves HIM and desires to lead in a manner that pleases Him...

A six week study that has taught me so much and I pray has touched the lives of our teens and thru the play last night...I pray it also touched the lives of the adults who joined us...

so you see no reason other than...the sin I'm struggling with...I'm failing at it miserably and I want God to just take it from me...like magic...just be gone...and he wants me to trust HIM...please pray for me...again...I just can't be open about it...but I do need so many prayers...thank you family and friends...I love you all!