PRONE...

      O to grace how great a debtor 

 daily I'm constrained to be! 

 Let thy goodness, like a fetter, 
bind my wandering heart to thee. 

 Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, 

 prone to leave the God I love; 

 here's my heart, O take and seal it, 

 seal it for thy courts above. 

We sang this song on Sunday morning...and these particular words hit me so hard...

I don't know about you but this is my life...in a few short words...

I love Him...I serve Him...I am passionate about Him...and then...something happens...a struggle maybe or a trial or a simple distraction...and my heart that is SO prone to wander...begins that journey of going the wrong way...yet again...

One thing the Lord has really been talking to me about is always being so negative...not saying positive things about others...and ALWAYS seeing my glass of circumstances 1/2 empty instead of 1/2 full...now this is a habit in my life and so I'm determined to begin being more positive...looking for the positive...and you might ask how this week has gone...well...I haven't spewed negativity out all week...but I have just been quiet which is not the end result I believe the Lord would want from me...so once again I am a work in progress...

The other issue...is my addiction...I'm still circling the mountain...and every step of that daily circle I can CLEARLY hear the Lord say...haven't you circled this LONG ENOUGH!!! Get up and move north...please pray...while we as humans attempt to put our sins in categories...they are all even and level at the foot of the cross...and this addiction is a sin the Lord has convicted me of...I am learning that no matter what,  He loves me...God's love for me...for us is NOT based on our victories over sin...even when I feel like a complete failure...He loves me... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tF1jrI6dbFg

So what now...well I am at a fork the road of my life...I can go the wrong way...the way of my Savior...or I can sit down and quit...which I REFUSE TO DO...I will not quit...He is with me...so I will go on with Him...and there will be times that I THINK I am taking the right way...and find out a few steps into it that I was wrong...but He loves me anyway and He will lead me the correct way...if I will submit to Him...and there will be times that I will take the correct path...but do you know what,  He still loves me...the same...for God so loved the world that He gave His son...He loved and He gave and thank goodness it is NOT dependent on me!

My name is Lori...and I am a food addict...and I am a messed up woman...but I am loved and redeemed by Jesus Christ...my Savior...I am a work in progress and until I draw my last breath I will be a work in progress...