Monday, October 27, 2014

...a jumbled mess of thankfulness...


How do I begin to say how thankful I am...November will soon be upon us and those of us who are faithful (or addicted addicts) to Facebook will be putting a daily...I am thankful for... on our status...but I have found myself thinking the last few days of all I'm thankful for already...and let me tell you...it is all running through my head like a jumbled up mess!!!!

Yesterday in church I was worshiping as Michael and Bekah led us...and I found myself thankful...for the one my son has found...the love they share is very apparent between the two of them...they had pulled a little prank on someone yesterday and it was just about all they could both do to keep from bursting out in laughter at any given moment...but then true worship started...I love to see my children worship...don't you...is there anything sweeter...maybe a grandbaby raising hands to the Lord...back to Michael and Beks...she follows his lead so well...in a marriage isn't that how it is suppose to be? I was a bit overwhelmed by it...

Then my step dad...Tucker was taking up the offering and I just glanced his way...and again...I was overwhelmed by the thought of just how lucky I have been to have this special person in my life over the last 34 plus years...I even found myself envious of his children...what an honor to be able to call him dad...and watch the Lord do a transforming miracle in  their daddy's life over the years...I too, am thankful to have witnessed it...he is a good man...not a perfect man...but still a good man...and a man who has taken such good care of my mom! He has a place in my heart that no one else can have...it is his place...he earned...or maybe a better word is he...won it...and I am thankful for him...I have stood by the grave to two other men in my life that have help to form me into the woman I have become...one I told and the other I just assumed he knew...I am overwhelmed with the fact that I do NOT want to take people for granted again...

We have two new "daughters" this year...and I have come to love them both very deeply already...they are very different girls...much like my own children are all very different...but they each have a place in my heart that will forever be there...I am thankful for our Sasha and the way she is opening up to us more and more...I desire nothing more than for her to have true joy...and peace in her sweet life...I love to see her face light up with a smile...and for our Sofia...she has embraced us with open arms...and as she transitions into our lives I want nothing more for her either...joy...peace...HOPE...I am overwhelmed that God choose Scott and I once again be apart of two young ladies lives...Lord...give us wisdom...love...

We spent a little time appreciating our pastor and his sweet family yesterday...again thankful...thankful they are still standing...they are a picture to the world what Jesus can and will do...if only we will seek Him above our feelings...wants...pain...HE IS EVERYTHING...and HE IS ENOUGH...I am thankful that they are willing to let us know that and see that first hand...although...truth be told...we are all the same...if we as believers are standing it is by the grace of God...and the transforming power of Jesus Christ!!!!

...I have more to be thankful for and it will be coming soon...but I want to end with this one more thing I am overwhelmed with...

my heritage...as far as with the Lord...has not got a great track record...my mom and step dad are changing that but as for my grandparents I just know I never saw or heard about Jesus...all I know is I never really heard about the Lord as a child except when His name was being miss used...I want so much for my children...grandchildren...and all the extras that join us along the way to know a heritage of Jesus from our home...to know we love Him...serve Him and desire to love Him above all else...to laugh...and to cry...and to know there is hope in HIM...

I was driving to see my mom the other day...and I past my grandparents old farm...they have both been gone for quite some time now and their farm has been sold a few times since...but now...a church has purchased the land and will be building on it in the future...as I past the other day I notice this on the property...

the sun was just coming onto the cross...with the fog still there...to see a church...and the hope of the cross on my grandparents property brings great joy to me...and I believe, it brings great joy to them as well...I believe no matter their choice in life...that would want us...their legacy...their family...their ancestors to know that the hope of this world...and eternity is found only in the cross...I know this may sound so silly but the emotions that I had that morning was...overwhelming...

As we begin to embrace the holiday season...may be be overwhelmed in HIM...



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